Starting over

One of the things I learned the last time I completed a beachbody program was that you can't let one mistake, like a donut (or five) derail your progress. You keep going. 

So here I am almost 2 years later heavier than I have ever been in my life, pretty close to the weight I was pregnant with the twins, and I'm starting over from scratch on my weight loss. Why? Because I gave birth to the two most beautiful babies ever a year and a coue weeks ago. I may be starting over from scratch but last time when I lost 20 lbs and 6 pant sizes I learned that I can do it! My body is capable of pushing itself to the limits and I'm ready to push it again! 

I started T25 today! I know it's become this huge fad right now, but I bought it as soon as it came out months ago, but now I'm ready to do it! I'm a little sad that I'm no longer breast feeding the babies, but they have both moved on, so I finally have my body back!

The workout was hard, but I did the modified versions when I needed to, and did the normal ones for as long as I could. I had the window open and was still dripping sweat! I loved it! I am excited for tomorrow!

I will also be going to Zumba when I can and doing some Couch to 5k because I actually do have a love for running, it really seems to clear my head and give me even more of a mood lift :)

Those of you who don't know, I'm a stay at home mom of three. A 2.5 year old girl and boy/girl twins that just turned 1 at the end if last month. I just started working 1-2 days a week at a local assisted living home and I actually miss spending time at home with my children those days but it's nice to have a little peace and quiet. We live in a small town in Alaska and I may not have very many close friends here but our family is here and it is the most beautiful place to live. 

I'm excited to share my journey with you and I'm hoping to get better and blogging by the end of it. My goal is to make it through the whole T25 program! I will post my starting weight tomorrow.

My family a few months ago

My twins :)

Getting my body back!

PMy twins will be 11 months old next week and I have very mixed emotions about the fact that they are both weaning themselves from nursing without much help from me. I'm sad because I am going to miss that special bonding time, but I'm so excited to be able to take better control over my appetite. Hopefully they can and will still nurse once or twice a day for awhile but I won't ever have to feel bad about working out diminishing my supply. 

So with that said I'm finally back on track.  At 245 lbs last week I am starting out with even more to lose than when I started almost two years ago. I am going to be eating as much clean whole foods as possible, and also keeping track of my calories on myfitnesspal on my phone. I need to make sure I don't over eat. 

Unlike last time I won't be doing a 90 day or 60 day program. I will be doing whatever workout I can when I can around my kids' an husband's schedule. I want to stick to and finish the couch to 5k program but have to be careful about it hurting my knees and ankle since I'm a lot heavier now. I will also do some T25, 30 day shred, and possibly some Zumba classes if I can make it to the class at the gym. I'm also going to use my new treadmill as often as I can.

So far in the last 3 days I've lost 2 lbs. so far so good. Wish me luck, it's going to be hard with a 2 year old and 11 month old twins!

Progress pic of my face, I need to take a full body one.

Dinner tonight. Baked chicken breast, corn on the cob, peas and carrots and roasted beets.

Feeling good after a break!

My day to myself ended up being about 3 hours to myself or a little more, but it was what I needed to get motivated and back on track. I went for a walk/jog and restarted week 2 of the couch to 5k. It went great and I think my ankle and my knees are ok for now, but I won't push it. 

I also got T25 in the mail and I'm super excited to try it. They are 25 minute workouts by the guy who does Insanity. It's going to be difficult but I'm so excited and am going to start tonight after the kids are all asleep and do the 5 day quick start and start the regular 60 day program on Monday. I can't wait!

A day to myself!

I am taking a much needed day to myself and leaving my husband at home with the kids. I've been stressed to the max lately waiting to hear when my baby girl will need a cath ballooning on her heart. I called the hospital and its going to be sometime in August but if I don't hear by Thursday morning I'm calling them back. 

My day off includes my breast pump, kindle, laptop, band of brothers on Netflix to watch while I pump, a yummy sprouted bagel with cream cheese, and hopefully a jog. I am enjoying the sun since I don't get out of the house when I'm babysitting and have 5 kids to take care of two and under. Now to take a few hours and breath and enjoy the peace and quiet.'

A bit behind the group..but still going

I decided yesterday to try a new group started by an acquaintance of mine who recently got her personal training certification and started a workout class called Valdez Moms on the Go. I thought it would be a great way to be around other moms and get some weight off so it would be easier for me to run. Well I was a bit confused or delusional in my thinking that this class wouldn't be way too difficult for me. It is actually a lot of jogging to a bunch of stations that we stop at (while pushing kids in strollers) and do different workouts. I have no problem pushing myself and doing as much as I can, but when it comes to jogging, there is only so much my almost 240 pound butt can do! By the time I reached the first station and trying to jog as much as I could, I felt like I may just puke. Then came the lunges...I HATE lunges, the sad thing is they are one of the best workouts ever. Here I am, sweating, panting, legs trembling, and feeling like jello while yelling for my daughter and the 2 year old I babysit to get back in the stroller so I can "jog" or more "walk/waddle" to the next station. It was an amazing workout, 4 play grounds as stations across town to jog to and workout at, and I felt totally worked out and fantastic after. I am definitely putting myself through the pain again, I just hope I can work up to jogging the whole time! As far as food goes lately I'm trying to get back to eating clean and having all of us eat clean, because I don't think eating the toddler's scraps and leftovers and everything else in sight don't make a very balanced meal plan. I'm thinking my daughter is beginning to look at me more like I'm a dog sitting there begging for her food and waiting for scraps. One of these days I'm going to be told "no begging" by my 2 year old. Its definitely time to plan ahead for my meals so I'm not the last person to eat. I'm going to start trying to plan breakfasts, lunches, dinners and snacks for the week for both me and my family, as well as the children I babysit. Then there will be a lot less chance I can go berserk and eat a whole bag of cookies. My husband is also finally getting on track with working out. I'm very glad, cause it will make him feel a lot better too.

Surviving my daily chaos!

I think my children are amazing beautiful little miracles. I can't imagine my life without them. That being said I honestly never thought I would ever be strong enough to handle the constant state of chaos my life is in right now. My two year old screaming and whining and dumping things all over and pulling things off the counter, and screaming and fighting nap time and bed time. The twins screaming and whining and crying because they are teething and just want to be held and have unsleep trained themselves and have almost monthly appointments to a urologist, cardiologist, an opthamologist...tests and scans. This mommy is exhausted. I finally started doing a walk/jog program and ended up hurting my knees so I have to lose weight so I can try again when I'm not as heavy. I try to enjoy every minute of my babies lives, but I can't wait till I can sleep all night and have them go to bed with out needing me here to help so I can actually take some time for myself and workout or go for a jog. I want to get this weight off once and for all, but it seems like nursing twins and taking care of my own plus two more is so exhausting and draining that I eat constantly and can't get out of the house very easily or even to my garage to workout. I know it won't always be like this. Someday my babies will grow up and I will miss this stage and wish that they were still small. I promise someday in the next few months I will be working out regularly and blogging a lot more often. Right now my attention is all babies and as much housework as I can accomplish which is never much. Hope to see you all soon!

Finally working out!

A week ago on June 6th, I finally started working out. This time since I have more kids now and a lot less free time, I'm starting with the couch to 5k program and walking and/or workout dvds on my days off from the jogging program. I've done the first week and just started week two of the program today! I have done it once before and forgot how much I love it. I'm starting over again after having twins in October and also an older girl that turned two in May. In the pics I'm 239.0 lbs and wearing a size 20 (old navy) jeans and xxl old navy shirts. I'm totally motivated again and am not going to stop till this weight comes off and I'm not going to let any little slip up no matter how big or small throw me off course, I'm in this for the long haul!!